Looking Forward

I continue to have, what one may call, a string of bad luck. Our main vehicle, a 2002 Pontiac Montana, decided to either crack a head or blow a head gasket, while in South Carolina. The 2,000 dollar estimate threw me into a tizzy! Being unemployed sort of puts a damper on things and I spent all my reserve cash getting a trailer to go get the van. Our awesome friend Ben, towed it home with his van. All I could do was buy him lunch at Wendy's. Ben is a mechanic but has informed me he can't repair it. So, now it's sitting in his yard and I'm not sure what to do with it.
About two days later, our other car, a 1983 Nissan Pulsar began billowing huge plumes of white smoke from the tailpipe and engine manifold. Now, I can't drive it. Our other awesome friends, Tim and Betsy offered to give us a van they don't use. I was embarrassed to accept it, but had to turn it away because the check engine light was on and the brakes were really slushy. I don't have the money to fix the vehicles I have now, a third one would just kill me.
But it's all good. Our whole family is under a lot of stress what with the weird year we've had. Some days I feel pretty crappy about everything, but other days I feel optimistic, like today. I did a short Bible study this morning and am holding on to 'If God is for us, who can be against us?"
I've been trying to scrounge up work while selling a lot of items on my ebay site, while looking for full time work, keeping the kids company, cooking and stuff and junk. Sadly, I have a bunch of bills.
Oh well. Back to the hunt!